Angry Monologue - “I wasn’t afraid of losing you… I was afraid of losing myself again.” (FULL 1 MIN)

 

“I wasn’t afraid of losing you… I was afraid of losing myself again.” (FULL 1 MIN)

SITUATION:

Raat, bench, halka andhera.
Ladki poochti hai, “Tum door kyun chale gaye?”
Ladka pehli baar bina filter ke sach bolne wala hai.
Hawa chal rahi hai, silence heavy ho jata hai.
Woh dheere se uski taraf dekh kar shuru karta hai.

1-MIN MONOLOGUE:

Tum jaanti ho sabse bada darr kya hota hai?
Pyaar khone ka nahi…
khud ko khone ka.

I wasn’t afraid of losing you… I was afraid of losing myself again.
Tumhare saath main bohot kuch feel karta tha—
khushi bhi, par pressure bhi.
Main har baar tumhe khush rakhne ke chakkar me
apne aap ko peeche chhod deta tha.

Main compromise karta gaya…
itna ki ek din main apna hi reflection pehchaan nahi paaya.
Tum poori thi, main toot ke aadha ban chuka tha.

Main tumse door nahi jaana chahta tha,
par main dar raha tha ki agar main ruk gaya
to main phir wahi aadmi ban jaaunga
jiska koi apna opinion, apni pehchaan nahi bachi.

Mera door jaana tumhe hurt karne ke liye nahi tha…
woh mera final attempt tha apne aap ko bachaane ka.
Aaj keh raha hoon…
kyunki main is sach ko aur chhupa nahi sakta—
main tumse nahi,
apne aap se lad raha tha.