Dramatic Monologue for Male Voice - “Aakhri Baar Khud Se”

 

Situation (Context):

Raat ka waqt hai.
Shehar so chuka hai, par ek aadmi jaag raha hai.

Wo akela khada hai —
ya to chhat par,
ya khali kamre me,
ya streetlight ke niche.

Aaj kuch toot gaya hai.
Koi fight nahi, koi cheekh nahi —
bas ek realization.

Usne bahut sambhala,
bahut jhela,
aur bahut der tak chup raha.

Ye monologue wo kisi aur se nahi,
khud se bol raha hai.
Jaise ye uski zindagi ka aakhri honest conversation ho.

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Dramatic Monologue (Roman Hindi – Male Voice):

Aaj main khud se jhooth nahi bolunga.
Aaj main ye nahi kahunga
ke “sab theek ho jaayega.”

Sach ye hai
ke main thak gaya hoon.

Har roz strong banne ki koshish karte-karte
main ye bhool gaya
ke mujhe bhi sambhalne ki zarurat thi.

Maine sabko samjha,
sabko maaf kiya,
sabke liye khud ko chhota karta gaya.

Aur jab meri baari aayi…
toh koi nahi tha.

Maine shor nahi machaya,
kyunki mujhe laga
meri khamoshi hi meri pehchaan hai.

Par aaj samajh aa raha hai
ke chup rehna himmat nahi hota,
kabhi-kabhi
wo bas darr hota hai.

Darr —
ke agar main toot gaya
toh sab bikhar jaayega.

Par sach ye bhi hai
ke main roz thoda-thoda toot raha hoon.

Aaj main wada karta hoon
khud se…
ke ye aakhri baar hai
jab main apne dard ko ignore kar raha hoon.

Aaj ke baad
ya toh main poora jeeyunga,
ya phir
main kisi aur ke liye nahi,
sirf apne liye ladunga.

Kyuki main sirf zinda rehne ke liye nahi bana…
main jeene ke liye bana hoon.

Aur aaj…
ye baat
main aakhri baar
khud se keh raha hoon.