Dramatic Monologue for female voice - “Aaj Main Khud Ke Saath Hoon”

Situation (Context):

Raat ka waqt hai.
Ghar shaant hai, par uske andar shor hai.

Wo akeli baithi hai —
khidki ke paas,
ya bed ke kone par,
ya mirror ke saamne bina makeup ke.

Aaj koi bada jhagda nahi hua.
Kisi ne kuch galat nahi kaha.
Bas…
bahut time baad
use ehsaas hua hai
ke wo sabke saath rahi,
par kabhi khud ke saath nahi.

Ye monologue wo duniya ke liye nahi,
khud ke liye bol rahi hai.
Jaise pehli baar apni hi awaaz sunn rahi ho.

---

Dramatic Monologue (Roman Hindi – Female Voice):

Aaj main thak gayi hoon.
Sirf kaam se nahi…
khud ko samjhaate-samjhaate thak gayi hoon.

Har baar main hi kyun samajhdaar banu?
Har baar main hi chup rahu?
Har baar main hi ye maan lu
ke meri feelings baad me aa sakti hain?

Maine sabke liye jagah banayi.
Unke moods ke liye,
unke gusse ke liye,
unke dard ke liye.

Par jab baat meri aayi…
toh main khud ko hi side me rakh deti rahi.

Log kehte hain,
“Tu strong hai.”
Par unhe kaun bataye
strong hona bhi kabhi-kabhi
bahut akela kar deta hai.

Main bhi girna chahti hoon.
Main bhi kehna chahti hoon
ke mujhe sab kuch nahi aata.
Ke mujhe bhi kisi ke sahaare ki zarurat hai.

Par main muskurati rahi.
Kyuki agar main toot gayi,
toh log poochenge —
“Isse kya ho gaya?”

Aaj pehli baar
main wo sawal khud se pooch rahi hoon.

Aur jawab simple hai…
main khud ko bhool gayi thi.

Aaj main wada karti hoon
khud se —
ke main apni awaaz
dobara chhoti nahi karungi.

Aaj ke baad
agar main strong bani,
toh sirf isliye
kyuki maine khud ko chuna.

Aur aaj…
itni der baad…
main khud ke saath hoon.